et si tu n'existais pas

If you did not exist
Tell me why I would exist
To wander in a world without you
Without hope and without regret

And if you did not exist
I would try to invent the love
As a painter who sees under his fingers
The birth of the colors of a day

And which does not return from there
And if you did not exist
Tell me for whom I would exist
The passer-bies asleep in my arms
Whom I would never love

And if you did not exist
I would only be one more point
In this world which comes and which goes
I would feel lost,
I would need you

And if you did not exist
Tell me how I would exist
I could pretend to be me
But I would not be true

And if you did not exist
I think that I would have found
The secret of life, and why to live
Just to create you
And to look at you

thanx syahir aizat~ ;)
muahxXxXx!

kisah bibik 01 : udang masak sos

ni name nye xde keje time cuti..
kisah bibik ni sbb i have a very very very annoying maid..
ni bibik yg baru punye...xde la baru sgt...dah setahun lebih..
yg x best nye sbb die x pandai sgt masak mcm bibik yg lepas...
my mum esp...gets very irritated with her..
sbb die mcm x ikhlas...mcm berpura2...dan perlbagai jenis macam lagi..
ape2 yg dia masak...mak aku x gemar sgt nk makan..

mak aku dah mula suh blaja masak..
dah byk kali suruh dah..tp baru kali ni nk masak betul2..
balik dari kuantan ritu, mak aku suh buat udang masak sos..
yeke masak sos??
aku kate je udang masak sos..sbb letak sos byk2~
kebetulan maksu masak udang...n aku pun tolong2 kat dapur..

sbgi anak yg baik..
aku pun masak laaa utk dinner haritu..
satu dish je laa yg aku masak..
n korang pun tahu aku ade kembar yg asik nk sibuk2..
aku nk masak..die pun nk masak gak laa kan
hee~
oh...bibik masak sambal ikan..die cube gak nk borak2 dgn ktorg kat dapur.
tp ktorg wat x layan je..

hasilnye...mak aku kate udang tu sedap~
hehee...nnt bleh masak lagi ;)
tp aku lupe nk letak sos tiram..well..still sedap~
yeah!
first dish dah bjaya.rase seronok plak nk masak2..
lepas dinner..aku pnye udang habes..tp sambal ikan tu x abes..
bibik kate..
kalo aku x masak udang..msti ikan die abes..
erk...tu perli ke...puji x ikhlas ke..??
aku pun x tahu lahh..

yg pasti pasni sure mak aku suh masak lagi..
huhuhu~

i just dont get it

seriously..

i really dunt get it..

why are you suddenly mad at me..

i know..i know..

but then when i said i'm done..

u asked me to continue doing the thing that i'm not doing nemore..

and now u said that i never cared?

am i really not that understanding?

=(

sorry then...

everything happened is my fault..

everything happened as if i started it first..

when i didnt tell you what is it about..

and u called me dishonest..

aih...

ape ni....i really dunt get what is it that you want... =/

and sorry for not being understanding enough

atleast you can go somewhere to take ur mind off this..

but i'm stuck here..

take care then..

love you still... *sigh*

bengkel kesenian ukm 2009

the workshop was held from 9th to 13th of may 2009...

and yeah...i came a day late bcause i went to MIHAS on sunday..

haha~

the workshop comprises of 4 catagories which is seni tampak..seni muzik..seni tari..and seni teater...

i dunt know what's the exact purpose of this workshop =P

datang aje lahh..

as long as there's free food and transportation..

rabu malam haritu laa malam last utk persembahan sume..

overall...this workshop is really a beneficial especially for beginners..

from this workshop also i realized my weaknesses..

its not that i dunt know how to count the beat..

but i tend to drag/accelerate the beat..

urgh~ and i usually got lost during practice just bcause i lost count of the beat..

main mcm x ikut tempo lah..~

but thankfully during performance i played quite well but not perfect..

harap2 terpilih utk konsert diraja akan datang..huhu

bengkel kesenian ni best jugak la..

sbb ade geng kan.and sume mentors tu dah kenal and penah join in the last ipt band comp..seronok jugak..

practice started from 8.45-11.45am..and then lunch..

then continue practice after zohor prayers..until around 5pm..and sambung balik pas maghrib smpi malam~

the songs we get is not that easy lah...well,not for me~

freshly composed just for the workshop i think~

there's about 15-20 new songs...but we just performed 5 songs..

the chosen songs are bahtera merdeka,besame mucho,never on sunday,malamku bermimpi and empat dara..

dah abes bengkel ni mmg penat lahh~

huhu...sorry dear..these past few days i dunt have much time to spend for you..

but thanx for accompanying me during those nights.. =)

glad that i have you by my side always...

and sorry sorry sorry too for all the wrong doings i've done..huhu

sorry =(

muahxXx~

contemporary dance

clarinet line~

release tension after a long long day~ 

and of course laa aku yg paling pendek!

+snap snap!+

trombonist~ 

msti lah yg tgh tu paling hensem~ =P

yeah YOU!

MIHAS 2009

first of all...

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers out there~

happy mothers day umi...and not forgetting 'bakal mak mertua'

ngahahaha (gila perasan!)

hee~

we (alia,aina,my mum) went to MIHAS

today is the last day~

i thought we're going to be one of the early birds =P

but surprisingly..

when we arrived at MECC or Matrade Exhibition Convention Centre it's already full~

its quite fun because you can find varieties of food and drink products down there..

and of course...

you'll get some discount or some promotions..~

seronok sangat~

perut yg lapar n dahaga pun bleh jadi kenyang sbb mkn makanan free

hee~

boleh makan byk2~~~

makan byk..beli pun byk lahh

and then u can find and buy all the non-halal foods because everything is totally halal there..

mcm dimsum~ or salami..

xpe lahh...bukan dpt shopping mknn selalu =)

dah penat shopping penat main band pulak~

haiyo...dpt byk byk byk lagu baru...dang!

selamat berlatih smpi hari rabu malam!

lepas itu mau pulang~~

i miss you syahir aizat!

byebye ;)

kiyaAaAa~

dah abes exam ;)

huhu..straight pas exam je trus balik..

hee~ this is heaven~

tp x rase seronok pun... =/

smlm ajak abg ngah dgn aina pegi alamanda before going back home.

mcm sedih je pegi alamanda kali ni..

dah lame x pegi alamanda since syahir aizat dah fly...

kalo x msti every week kite pegi kan?

huhuhu.

pegi sane just nk jalan2 and makan waffle..

hee~

i ate the petite four..

a belgian waffle with 4 toppings... =)

tp mkn sorg2 je sbb aina x suke mkn waffle (die la kate)

hurm...well..bukan sng nk carik sumone yg suka ape yg kite suka..

jalan2 pusing alamanda pun tgk2 kedai mane yg kitorng slalu masuk..

bring back those memories..

sedih~

pegi alamanda kali ni dah x fun dah..

nnt syahir aizat balik kite gi alamanda same2 ek??

kite gi mkn sushi..mkn waffle...and lots n lots of other stuff

hee~

really miss you syahir aizat.

have fun in marsaille dear..

forget me not!

'without you..todays emotions would be like the scurf of yesterdays'

sabtu nk kena balik ukm lagi..utk sminggu

huhu..pegi pun x rela je..

bangi dah x best dah skarang  =(