iye ke??

ahaa.aku baru baca blog mr.chatni.segala bebelan beliau.

sangat tertarik kepada quote yang beliau sertakan dalam post dia kali ni.

'makin tinggi harapan, makin tinggi kekecewaan'

(sorry ye chatni.cilok jap)

so does that mean i shouldnt put high hopes on whatever i am hoping now?

huhu.hope always fail us.but that doesnt mean totally not hoping right..

sigh...i hope..i hope...and i wish.....that my wishes would come true.

we could easily move on and leave everything behind us.

but some are not just as easy as 'moving on'.

no matter how.i am still hoping..and still believing...

i miss you.the one that was once mine. ='(

ah sudahlah.

benci.sangat benci.teramat benci!

arghh~ aku sangat tension kalau tak dapat connect internet.

lebih lebih lagi kalau aku dah mengharap segunung nak online guna laptop sendiri.

memang la bersyukur ada kawan baik hati bagi pinjam laptop.

tapi laptop sendiri lagi selesa dan seronok kan?

(ok aina.aku tau kau tengah tidur and akan baca post ni esok pagi.heee)

dari dulu sampai sekarang pun aku tension bila tak dapat connect internet.

dulu komputer dalam bilik susah nak on.aku hentak hentak sampai on..

asalkan dapat online.

dulu pakai modem yang bising treet treet troot troot.

kadang2 terputus.aku tunggu tunggu sampai tension.

asalkan dapat online.

sekarang wireless kat rumah kalau ramai user memang asik local je.

memang router dalam bilik aku.aku tutup rehatkan router jap.

asalkan aku yang dapat online.

haa.sekarang ni laptop sendiri tak dapat connection.

guna je lah laptop kawan.

asalkan dapat online. T_T

eh.bukan la aku nak kata aku tak boleh hidup tanpa internet.

tapi aku barang pasang laptop tapi takde internet.hee.

kalau takde internet.baik off je la laptop ni. =P

ok alia.takde internet kau patut baca journals and review papers blablablabla.

oh oh.cepat la awak balik.org bosan O.o

n'sync - this i promise you.YOU YOU YOU~ tralalalala~

dah mula dah.

tapi cuti semester.yeay!

tapi kena balik ukm! boo! (taknak yeay.tak seronok pun)

dah mula lab.yeay!

orang lain dah mula lama dah! boo! (langsung tak gembira)

duduk kolej dekat.yeay!

tapi kena naik tangga bapak punya banyak.boo!

turun naik tangga bajet boleh slim.yeay!

tapi nasib kaki pulak cramp.boo!

prepare bahan awal.boleh balik awal.yeay!

tunggu autoclave punya pasal.terpaksa tunggu lama.boo!

bercinta seronok bukan main.yeay!

tapi bila dah bergaduh.sedih nak mampos.boo!

yang last tu saja je ek.haha~

enjoy ur holiday kawan2!

penat baru balik dari lab!

*pengsan*

ikan ayam wasabi.

aku sepatutnya balik ukm petang ni.nasib pelajar tahun akhir la katakan.
tapi tak jadi balik.balik esok pagi.ok jom masuk dapur masak!
umi masak ikan asam pedas harini.
pastu aku tiba-tiba teringat satu kisah pasal aku dengan si dia.

dulu...setiap hari.aku dan dia akan main satu game ni.
'Guess what am i going to cook tonight'
si dia yang memasak.so aku la yang kena teka.
cuba teka... _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
kebetulan haritu aku tersangatlah blur.teka punya teka.tak dapat jugak.
aku dah dapat teka yang depan.(konon la dah dapat kan)
IKAN AYAM _ _ _ _ _
mintak punya mintak hint.skali dia bagi hint : wasabi.
memang la takde lauk yang mula dengan IKAN AYAM kan? haha.
ngokngok je aku ni.so aku pun bantai la IKAN AYAM WASABI.

haha.adeh.gelak sakan ktorg malam tu.mana ada lauk wasabi la alia~~
aku pun nak jugak stick kat ikan ayam tu.padahal memang dah tau takde lauk ikan ayam.
dia sebenarnya nak masak ikan asam pedas.macam mane la boleh sampai wasabi.hee~
remember ALIA IKAN WASABI? SYAHIR AYAM WASABI? =P

miss the old days..dulu kita selalu gelak2.borak2 mcm takde penghujungnya.
tapi sekarang dah tak macam tu lagi...
harap2..satu hari nanti..kita dapat jadi kita yang dulu lagi..
walaupun mustahil... ='(

boring-tart.

ok.sebenarnya aku bosan duduk rumah takde buat apa2.
sebab tu aku buat tart untuk fill up masa yang ada ni.
ok2.aku dah banyak kali bagitau aku buat tart kan.
tapi kali ni aku guna resipi yang lain.cari dari internet.and pilih mana2 yang sesuai.
hee.aku tak minat sangat cheese tart.lagipun leceh nak buat fillings dia. (malas sebenarnya)

aku prefer tart kastard.hehe.resipi kali ni alhamdulillah kastard dia sedap.
yang dulu tak berapa nak sedap.
pastri dia pun senang je nak buat.tapi outcome dia tak secantik pastri yang dulu.

bakar pastri separuh masak.then masukkan kastard.

baru bakar sampai kastard tu masak.

hee.buruk la pastri ni bila dah sudah bakar.tak smooth kan.

oh.tu aku letak choc syrup konon nak jadikan topping la =P

taktau macam mana nak guna baking choc.

guna choc syrup pun jadi la.hehe.

kalau ikutkan.setiap 20hb ktorg punya monthliversary.

and this month should be our 26th.huhu.

happy 26th monthliversary syahir n alia.

=(

i want to be the reason for him to smile again.to laugh again.to be happy again.

i miss him so much.sobs.

=((

i miss you.

i miss us.

='(

say it isn't so

gareth gates =)

terdengar lagu dia kat radio.and so aku pun dengar semula lagu2 dia kat youtube.

banyak lagi yang best.and these are my favs

-say it isnt so.

-too serious too soon.

-what my heart wants to say.

-anyone of us.

most of his songs really touched my heart.and very meaningful.sobs.

selamat hari raya aidiladha kawan-kawan.

minta maaf kalau ada salah dan silap.

semoga hidup kamu semua diberkati dan dirahmati Allah.amin~

byebye.

first of all...
congratulations to wafa zakiyuddin and mior hazman.
i hope you guys will get eternal happiness together =)
nanti kahwin jemput tau =)
congrats again.so happy for you guys.hee.

hurm.this morning my family and i went to seremban to attend a wedding.
dengar lagu-lagu yang ada org ni nyanyi..
rasa sedih pulak.huu.esp lagu khatijah ibrahim - ku pendam sebuah duka.
ur being emotional alia.haha.
tahniah to mereka-mereka yang dah selamat bertunang.selamat bernikah.blablabla.
hope they will be your soul mate and stay by your side through thick and thin.
insyaAllah =)

i know i'm not good enough.i know i've treated you badly.i know i'm cruel.
i think its time for me to go......
good luck my dear.i will always love you.
and you are the greatest thing that ever happened to me.

holiday satu minggu.

exam dah habis! so? yeay jom holiday! errr.
no holiday for me ='( sebab tu la tak berapa nak seronok walaupun exam dah habis.
huu.exam je yang habis.benda lain belum habis lagi.haih.
so..i'll be going back to ukm to resume my final year project after raya haji.
huhu.orang lain tak balik weh raya haji.aku dok seronok lepak kat rumah.
(dah risau sebenarnya ni.minggu exam memang tak masuk lab langsung)
adoi..harap2 eksperimen yang dah rancang ni takde masalah apa2.

yeay hari ni dapat parcel dari syahir ijat =) F.P.W.L. =P
thanxie.terharunya.still dapat hadiah lagi walaupun....dot dot dot....
thanks a lot syahir ijat.really appreciate it.and thanks for the book too =)
will read it soon! =) and i dont really know what is this bomb-like thing?
nak bom org ke? ;(
hee.but yeah.WE ARE THE GREAT A.S.S :D
yeay yeay! dapat baju baru.CACHE CACHE! my new favourite brand.yeay~~
cant wait to visit their new outlet in mid ;)

cache cache? mon je prefere ;)

what is aina doing there? haha.

aina sebenarnya tumpang tido kat bilik aku satu malam.(khamis-jumaat).

bagus jugak ada aina.atleast xde la rasa tension sgt berdua je dengan ehem ehem.

and atleast i have someone to talk to and borak2.thanks sister!

p/s ; thanks for everything.i love you too =)

broken.

it hurts.

when we are trying to be normal.

and trying to rebuild our relationship.

and maybe trying to look happy.

but actually we're not. ='(

i am so full with guilt.

and maybe this guilt will haunt me for the rest of my life.

the museum of broken relationships.

ever heard of the museum? awesome huh.
The museum of broken relationships.
kebetulan aku jumpa masa tengah cari sayur dalam surat khabar.hehe.

well, some says to overcome ur emotional collapse from ur failed relationship is to throw away or get rid of the things ur ex gave to you.
well...it helped in many ways though...or it will create future probs (macam aku ni)

the EX axe.

haha.lawak pulak baca kisah kapak ni.

kapel tu move in sama2.lepas tu.bf dia pergi outstation for 3 weeks.bila balik awek dia dah ada GIRLFRIEND baru.cis.lesbian lah pula kan.

bila dah break up.he bought the axe and chopped off her furnitures that was left in his house.

and the remains was collected in heaps in her bedroom.bila pmpuan tu datang nak collect furniture dia.yang tinggal cuma furniture yang dah berkecai.hee.best gak ni.some kind of therapy huh.

ooo.sexy handcuffs.underwear? seriously?

the molecular dog.haha.

teddies are common.but i wont give away mine.

maybe i'll just give it away to some orphanage or something.

cute kan heartbroken robot ni.hee.

bestnya kalau dapat tgk exhibition macam ni.hee.sure ada banyak barang2 unik and funny =P

p/s ; i want to keep the things you gave me.so please dont leave with me ;(

thanx for the music.

dengar lagu-lagu masa study mmg syok.
tapi sorry.bukan lagu korea yang tahpape tu ek.aku tak faham.
lagu-lagu orkestra aku faham la.
lagu-lagu orkestra yang abgngah pasang dari laptop dia.
memang buat aku rindu kat orkestra.

rindu zaman sekolah dulu main orkestra.
rindu zaman universiti (belum grad lagi pun dah rindu) masa main orkestra dulu.
tapi sekarang dengan sistem koko ukm yang tahapehape.jarang ada event untuk orkestra.
kalau ada pun.aku yang sibuk.last join pun main untuk konvo.

my sectionmate. =)

its been fun playing with you senior.miss you.

seat khas untuk aku =P

time konsert diraja tahun lepas.

seriously.jealous sangat dengan seratas royal rhapsody.they are so lucky =)

i'll always give you my full support juniors!

one day.i'll own one of these.

dekat rumah ada trumpet sebijik.tapi aku taktau kenapa.aku dah main a few times pun still tak boleh ingat fingering dia.haha.xde jiwa la kat trumpet =P

p/s ; if time is all i have.....i'll wait for you...

two-one!

thank you so much guyss for those who wished! and some even called and sang the birthday song~ haha.you know who you are ;) you guys are such a sweetheart!
first.i am surprised my childhood bestie, yana called from melbourne around 8!

and second, few mins after that.my mum called out for me and excitedly said..
'alia,alia! ada hadiah untuk alia! ada hadiah kat luar~'
haha.chill umi.alia gi turun amik ok~

thank you so much mr.wasabi! no wonder you asked me not to bake on friday.
and my guesses are right! yeay~this is MY birthday cake~
plus.the three roses.i think it meant I LOVE YOU.auwww..
I LOVE YOU TOO sweetheart.always ;)

From Paris with LOVE ;)

tak makan lagi cake ni.terasa saaayaaang nak makaan bolehhh taaak?

hee.save the best for last ;)

then later in the evening, we went to al-Rawsha, an arabic, lebanese restaurant located in Pandan Indah.near wan's house.

its our first time.the food is quite nice.the interior was superb.but the service is damn slow.but its understandable la.public holiday kan harini.dah lama tak makan makan satu family.alhamdulillah kali ni semua adik beradik ada =)

birthday girls!

thank you umi.i love you!

last but not least.thank you kawan2 sebab banyak bagi support and all.

i wish you guys the best too ok =)

p/s : thank you for the surprise mr.wasabi.you made my day =) i love you so much. +hugs+

twenty-one!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

.yeay.

.sorry that i keep making you upset.

minutemen.

sebenarnya.aku baru lepas tgk cerita kat disney channel.
tajuk dia minutemen.quite interesting story.best jugak.
its about a trio of kids who learned the formula to time travel.
and they time travelled to help out their 'unlucky' schoolmates.

if i could time travel..i would time travel to the time when everything goes wrong.
perhaps make it all right again.but whats done is done right.
and all that we can do is to wait and just move on.

if i could time travel..i would go back to the time when we first met..
and i would avoid from doing all the things that made you upset..

if i could time travel..i would go back to the time when everything seems perfect for us.
and i will make you the happiest guy on earth.if i could.

i miss you.

i miss us. ='(

welcoming november.

selamat datang bulan november!
semoga bulan ni aku lebih bernasib baik. haha?

i just screwed up my virology paper.ah.sem ni memang teruk teruk teruk!
bertambah dengan environment yang tahpape.haih.
sedihnya.pointer gerenti turun. no turning back now.

tadi aku memang berkemas-kemas nak balik.angkat barang-barang sume.
sambil telinga cucuk earphone n dengar radio kuat2.
supaya tak dengar roommate hempas hempas barang dia.
tak faham lah dengan perangai psycho kau.
walaupun ini tak baik.tapi i wish you the worst!
*gelak jahat sikit boleh?*


cinta tak semestinya memiliki kan.
i admit that everything that happened between us is all my fault.
my own f*cking fault.i'm so so sorry..
but i dont think i can live without you..huhu
sorry again sebab menyemak dalam ur life.
eventhough we're not like how we used to be when we were happy.
but i'm thankful enough that i still have you.

*ur scary when ur angry.huhu*


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